That was true.
“I thought if I told you earlier, we wouldn’t make it,” she continued. “So I preferred to deal with your anger. I preferred you calling me stingy, exaggerating, controlling… rather than seeing us paying rent for another 10 years.”
Martin closed his eyes.
All the memories came flooding back to him at once.
The time he yelled at her because she only gave him 20 pesos for the bus.
The time he went to bed without dinner as punishment.
The time his friends told him that Maribel “had him well tamed” and he, furious, even repeated the same thing to her face.
The time she cried softly in the kitchen and he pretended to be asleep.
How cowardly he felt.
How small.
Maribel took out a third sheet of paper.
—And there’s something else.
Martin raised his face, frightened.
-Further?
She nodded.
—I didn’t just pay for the land. I also set aside materials: cement, rebar, cinder blocks. Don Ernesto has a cousin who’s a bricklayer. He’s going to help us build two rooms and the bathroom first. It won’t look nice at first. It might not even have a floor. But it’s going to be ours.
Martin began to cry silently.
Not like in the movies.
Not with dignity.
She wept with a twisted face, slumped shoulders, and shame piercing her chest.
Maribel approached slowly.
—I wanted tacos too, Martín. I wanted to go out too. I wanted to buy new shoes too, instead of mending the same ones. I also wanted you to stop looking at me like I was your enemy.
He let out a sob.
-Forgive me.
—But every time I said “no,” it wasn’t because I didn’t love you. It was because I was saving a little piece of wall, a window, a door.
Martin clutched the papers to his chest.
—I thought you were taking my life.
Maribel shook her head.
—I was finding you a place where you could rest without fear.
That phrase broke him.
Because he had always believed that he needed money to feel like a man.
Money to buy a round.
Money to avoid looking bad.
Money so that others wouldn’t make fun of them.
But Maribel, silent and with her graph paper notebook, had understood something deeper.
What he needed was not a beer to forget about life.
I needed a life I didn’t want to escape from.
Martin got up and hugged her.
At first she remained rigid.
She had received so many complaints that even affection seemed suspicious to her.
But then she rested her forehead on his chest and cried too.
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