Part 1:

I thought pregnancy would be the hardest thing I ever had to survive. I never imagined the loneliest part would begin before my daughter was even born.

Looking back now, I wish I had understood much sooner that something inside my marriage had gone terribly wrong.

The clock on the nightstand glowed 2:47 a.m. I had not slept longer than twenty minutes at a time. My back ached constantly, like someone had shoved a brick beneath my spine, and my baby kept kicking hard beneath my ribs.

I was thirty-four weeks pregnant, and my body no longer felt like it belonged to me.

I rolled to my left side, then my right. I sat up, lay back down, adjusted my pregnancy pillow, and got up to use the bathroom for what felt like the hundredth time. Our apartment was small, one bedroom on the third floor, the kind of place where even quiet footsteps seemed too loud.

Beside me, my husband Ryan let out a dramatic sigh and pulled a pillow over his head.

I remembered the early months, when he rubbed my feet, brought me ginger tea, and laughed that our baby was already bossing us around. That version of him felt like someone I had only imagined.

Since my maternity leave began, Ryan had changed. He complained about the electric bill, my food cravings, my snack wrappers, and most of all, the way I moved around at night.

Two nights earlier, he had snapped,

“You’ve been tossing around for an hour.”

“I’m sorry,” I whispered. “I just can’t get comfortable.”

“Well, figure it out. Some of us have work in the morning.”

I swallowed my answer. My doctor had already warned me that my blood pressure was rising and that lack of sleep could become dangerous. I had not told Ryan. I could already hear his annoyed sigh if I did.

So at 2:55 a.m., I lay perfectly still, staring at the ceiling fan, trying not to breathe too loudly. The baby kicked hard again, and I sucked in a breath.

Ryan shifted beside me. I felt the mattress tighten under him.

“Please,” I whispered to myself. “Please just let me sleep.”

At exactly 3:04 a.m., Ryan suddenly sat up like he had been attacked.

I froze, one hand on my belly and the other gripping the pillow beneath my hip.

“I’m sorry,” I said quickly. “The baby is kicking, and my back—”

He cut me off with a flat, exhausted stare.

“Then sleep somewhere else.”

Before I could answer, he reached toward the counter, grabbed my car keys, and threw them onto the blanket.

“You’ve got reclining seats.”

I stared at him.

“Ryan… I’m eight months pregnant.”

“So?” he muttered, rubbing his eyes. “I pay the rent. I need sleep because I work. You’re on maternity leave. Sleeping in the car for a few weeks won’t kill you.”

There it was.

I pay the rent.

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